

completely unknowing of what to do.
i just wished someone could give me all the answers for the set of questions i'm always having.
i hate having to make decisions, and this surely is one of those i hate the most.
i'm currently a social, academic and emotional wreck.
dearest chenxi;
i love you very much, and i hope you'll feel better soon. i know that Mitten's death is not only terrifying, but horrible and completely unexpected, and i definitely know it's going to be a very hard thing to get over. As much as i don't know what to do or say right now, i can only hope you'll be able to accept it soon enough, without being harsh on anyone- because no one wanted/intended it, it just happened.
I really hope things will look up soon. If you ever need me to be there, please don't hesitate at all to call, and i'll try my very best to be there. But i'm sorry for the times when i can't, because i'm rushing all my independent study proposals now until chinese new year, so please forgive me for the moments when it seems i'm neglecting you.
love;
val
